Thursday, June 28, 2012

an emo post

Hey, so yeah...
*crickets*

I've been thinking about this post for a week now.
You know the post--
blah blah blah life
blah blah blah emo
blah blah blah drama queen

It's the sorta post that says nothing 
but means everything.

It doesn't say,
hey I've been extremely sad of late,
what it does says is 
I've been dealing with some stuff.

It doesn't say,
the thought of being social right now overwhelms me,
what it does says is
hey I might not be around for a wee bit.

It doesn't say,
not being around makes me feel like a loser,
what it does says is
hey, I'm sorry
and I hope y'all can forgive me. 

 It doesn't say,
three months ago today my dad died and I just feel off,
what it does says is
I miss you all.

Maybe that's the most important part of the post?
So here it is,
the I'm gonna slip into a lil cocoon
and rest my head for a wee bit longer post.
Not too long.
Just long enough
 to grieve,
to think,
to heal.

But the whole time I'll be missing you.
Yes you.
Because we're friends, you and I.
And that's oh so important to me.

4 comments:

  1. We've missed you Ang...but the best thing about us out here, lost amid this virtual online community, is that we'll always be here...on and off, and when you need us we'll be around.
    Sometimes you can sing and dance with us and sometimes you can skim around the edges...we won't judge, we'll understand and we'll wait.
    Take whatever time you need and we'll still love you!
    x
    *hugs, hugs and more hugs*

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  2. There must be something in the air because your words captured how I've been feeling lately too only I've been so down I've not written even a shopping list!
    Take care and take all the time you need, as Lisa put it so beautifully above "we'll understand".
    Sometimes life is so darn difficult and I've come to realise grief is the hardest part of all. I wish there was a magic answer...
    love and prayers and hugs and rainbows made from tears and sunshine
    S xxx

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  3. You are missed Ang, but you need to look after yourself. Grief takes hold in all sorts of ways and 3 months is not a long space of time. Thinking of you and wishing you strength through the next little while. But come back to us soon as we miss you.

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  4. Just so you know....someone out east is sending you electronic hugs right now. Just sayin'. :)

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