However, I am gonna try this year for a loose resolution, something I've always resisted in the past. It's plain. It's simple. It makes me smile. And it feels pretty damn achievable so I'm fairly pleased with myself.
Wanna hear it? Well, here it goes:
Daily,
I will try to
read some,
write some,
and
not feel like a disappointment.
The biggie is that last one. And it's what I'm focusing on today.
Starting today:
I will stop feeling like a disappointment as a writer because I enjoy reading more than writing (THERE, I said it).
I will stop feeling like a disappointment because I don't social media well due to my real world responsibilities and I'll accept my limitations as the mother of four.
I will stop feeling like a disappointment because at the ripe age of thirty-four I'm still awkward as hell and unsure what I'm doing with my life as a professional anything.
I will stop feeling like a disappointment when I'm around people who make me feel unimportant because screw them. I'm pretty freaking awesome.
I will stop feeling like a disappointment because it's totes a downer and making my life far more complicated than it needs to be.
And starting today, I'm gonna focus on things that bring me joy, like my family and my friends and reading and writing and Y-O-U.
And maybe, just maybe, when 2015 rolls around, I'll be able to write an actual year in review post.
Okay. Now I'm getting cocky.
Happy New Year, my friends!
I pray your year is filled with
I pray your year is filled with
laughter to carry you through the sorrows,
peace to ease your troubles,
and love
because without it life just sucks.
You are ALL THE FREAKING AWESOME. #fact
ReplyDeleteI KNOW YOU ARE BUT WHAT AM I?!?!?!!
DeleteAng, I love this post. This post is everything I wanted to say this year...and it's nice to realize it's not just me that feels like a 34 year old awkward failure so much of the time ;)
ReplyDeleteWe are awesome. You are awesome. You are an amazing writer and I know this for a fact!
We are awesome, my friend. And I couldn't have better company in the awkward 34 year old club! Watch out world, we comin' to get YOU!
DeleteI love this! And I still love it even after the internet ate my comment...twice. Let's read all the things this year bestie! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
ReplyDeleteStoooopid internet! Stealing my bestest's comments!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! p.s. you're my favorite but shhhhhh... that's a super secret. ;)
DeleteYou're amazing...it has to be said! You're an inspiration...I think we judge ourselves too harshly without seeing what those around us see. I don't see myself as anything special and I'm 42, I see wonderful writers and wish I could be like them, I fail to see myself as they see me, as a writer!
ReplyDeleteI adore your words, be they in a story, in a blog or anywhere else...keep writing (and reading) and know you're not a disappointment, not evah!
Lisa, hands down, you are one of the most encouraging, wonderful, heartfelt people I know and I'm SO BLESSED to call you my friend. You've always got something fantastic to share that gets me right here *points to heart*. YOU are a wonderful writer and friend and encourager and all the things. *HUGS*
DeleteGoogle is up to it's old tricks and I'm not sure if this posted or not but I got prepared and copied it - HA! If it's already here, just ignore....
ReplyDeleteI'm even older than Lisa - in fact in 4 years, 5 weeks and 1 day I will be 50 - not that I'm counting!
I might have to borrow your resolution because I feel far from amazing right now. I may write about it ... and I may not!
However - this is not about me - YOU, young lady (!) are totally amazing - your writing NEVER disappoints me. I get excited when I see you've written something because I know it will move me and make me smile :-)
Have a fantastic 2014 xxxx
YOU are amazing and 2014 is gonna be fantastic BECAUSE I SAY SO!!!
Deletep.s. Like Lisa you are the bomb and so supportive and just amazing and now I'm getting verklempt so *HUGS*!!!
Happy New Year! Cheers to a year of laughter and feeling awesome. :)
ReplyDeleteYou too Sophie!!! Thanks!!
DeleteThat last one is a biggie. I like this idea though and think it's a fabulous resolution. I'm completely foregoing resolutions this year because I failed almost all of mine last year and that makes me feel like a disappointment. Ha. See? So I'm trying for not feeling like a disappointment also and am trying to read what I want when I want and that schedule can go somewhere and die. I did not become a blogger to SCHEDULE my reads, I already have a job. But anyways, I'm rambling. :P
ReplyDeleteFeeling like a disappointment is the worst. You know, I started this whole blogging thing six years ago to have FUN not to feel pressure and schedules and all that jazz. And I agree, it's time to stop that ridiculousness and just go back to having fun! I *heart* your rambles and your friendship! Here's to a year of a little less disappointment and a whole lot more enjoyment! *HUGS*
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